I woke up really sick on Saturday, and I have been such a pain in the ass since then. I would probably annoy the shit out of anyone right now. anyone but Steph, because she's been with me all the time even though I'm really no fun right now. I don't know why she puts up with me sometimes. No one should really put up with me being sick like I am now, but she does. She's been sleeping with me since Friday, not worrying about getting sick herself. She's been coming with me every where and staying up all night just to make sure I'm okay. And she's been feeding me too because I don't eat at all when I'm sick, so now she always buys my favorite food or just cooks whatever I might want to eat (though she does other times too). yeah she does whatever I feel like doing right now, as long as I'm having fun.. Today she even took me to the dentist because I have always changed the appointments cause I hate the dentist. She was done with her classes by 11 today and she came picked me up after 2 so she could take me to the dentist at 3. She had brought food too so I wouldn't starve because after you fill one of your teeth, you shouldn't eat for the rest of the day. yeah, my girlfriend thinks about that stuff too.

And I'm probably more of a pain in the ass right now than I have been the other days because my mouth hurts so bad and I can barely talk too. Even I can't stand myself right now, but she still loves me and she hasn't given up on me and walked away just like anyone would. No...she's just in the other room right now studying because I finally gave her some time for that I guess. I don't want her to waste all the time on me and not concentrate on anything else, like college..because I know how important school is to her. I love being with her all the time but I feel bad too because it feels like I'm using her right now although I'm not. I have told her to just go do what she usually does because I know what a pain in the ass sick people can be, but no. she said she'd rather be with me all the time even when I'm like this... basically doing nothing exciting because she doesn't like spending time with me only when I'm "fun".

I really just don't know why she takes care of me the way she does... but that's just who she is. And people wonder why I love her so fucking much. Its not hard to, and ya know what, I'd do all this for her too, everything that she's doing for me.

Hopefully this entry will make sense because after checking it a hundred times, it seems fine. It may not though because I'm falling asleep, and I'm in pain, I guess just sick and drugged up. But oh well...I can always read this entry and be reminded of what a wonderful person I have in my life, if I ever (dare to) doubt it and/or forget about it. I don't see that happening, but who knows....I'm a silly boy.

I should hit my sack.

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